As an aside I want to say there are many excellent aspects of this clinic, i would give a much better rating.The groups, music an art being my pers favs. The atmosphere, the quality staff which is a mixed bag, general of anywhere u go. Helen a awesome nurse that plays the uke, taking on weekends solo, she is amazing an caring, my main nurse Gail was also a lovely person, lots to be said on the pos side, but I have to note this important negative sadly. Had 2 intakes with the same psych last year, been working on a official complaint on the impact of his actions, during what already was a traumatic time. I needed/deserved to feel supported an safe, but the opposite was the case. Contrast to my last intake, the first one where there where still some redflags of odd things, lax boundaries in his actions, i let go, as it was mostly positive. He was more aware, insightful on how I must find it hard to trust, particularly males, from my trauma, he commented I was doing well with him alone in his room, also aptly pointed out trust needs to be earned. This all gave me the sense he was understanding an safe. Even changed my diagnosis to complex PTSD. There where many ways he was a professional doc, during both my intakes. when it comes to boundaries, this is where he is odd. It is a complex situation with many aspects, things that happened. I've been quite traumatized by the whole thing, thus its taken me so long to do a proper report. In between my admissions, I had run into my perpetrator. This and other abuse, put me into a very bad state.Returning to the hospital, my cptsd was heighten. I wasnt comfortable to talk about such with him. As even with victims services psychologist, I fell into a PTSD attack, i struggled to ground back. He was ok about it, for the most part the session went fine. Until I said I had one more thing on my list, request for social worker. His demeanor changed suddenly, serious and silently moved towards me in his swivel chair, stopped an moved back over to the right hand corner filing cabinet of his room, speaking again. internalized my fear trigger, we both went on as if nothing odd happened. Naively through out the whole thing, I felt he hadn't done wrong. He didn't touch me or say anything inappropriate. In hindsight I see this wasn't ok, it was a boundary violation and his attitude, actions there after further impacted my feelings of unsafety. I told staff upfront of what happened. It should of been clear to him how I was feeling, he was soon filled in of what my trauma was between intakes. Yet told me he couldn't guarantee a female to sit in on our sessions, acted as if I should be fine about it. had 2 sessions with female sit in,
1 with his nurse, her idea to do. But as he was not making my needs a priority I decided I needed to change dr, he directed me to speak to the NUM. She easily said a female could sit in, saving me from discharge to change dr. I was relived an appreciated this. why he didn't do this himself to facilitate my needs. He then made the decision he couldn't continue with me. Meaning I had to go, someone perhaps him fabricated that he reminds me of my perp and thats why I was afraid of him. I heard this was his comment by nurse, I pointed out it wasn't true an made no sense and I never said that, reminded her of what I originally told her. She saw my point an understood my distress. There where ways the hospital staff tried to help an support me with it all, but other then one on ones with the NUM an my temp therapist Miriam. It wasn't taken seriously, i spoke with the DCS and Merran watered down her previous honesty. I felt disempowered, unheard, manipulated, I fought hard for myself and others that might face such. I hope the psych and the hospital has reflected on his actions of this whole thing. I want to speak truth to power, far too often people get away with their damaging actions when they are in such positions, regarded and bring in institutions money, its not right and things need to change.